I had to call off work today. I’m so mentally sick that I’m getting physically sick. I can’t take this anymore 😦 I feel like I’m screaming for help but no one can hear me. Not like it matters because I don’t think anyone could help me. I just don’t want to feel so alone anymore; so dismissed; so like I just don’t matter, or like I’m just not important enough to take time out for. Why does God allow this? And why does he then ignore me and provide me no relief when I ask him for help? I just wish someone could come over and hold me while I cried, until this torturous episode was over.