Where to start.
I think I’m still doing well. It’s been 12 days since my last serious episode. I have to say that the “Wise mind” skill is definitely helpful. It’s hard, for sure, but it does help. I had to use it today.
I don’t want to talk about it in too much detail, but something happened that could have easily set me off. I caught myself right away and remembered my therapist telling me exactly what I could think to myself, in this very situation. It’s really hard and man does it take a whole lot of energy to fight everything that happens mentally and physically when I’m triggered. I was so exhausted the rest of the day.
It keeps popping back into my head from time to time. It’s amazing how no matter how much exposure you have to a particular trigger, it never seems to get much easier, and seems to hit me just as hard each time.
I’m trying to tell myself that I did a good job, and to keep my focus on the “Wise mind” thoughts. I’m so tired! But I’m happy I’m not breaking things and cursing people out, or breaking up.
There’s other things, but I feel like shutting up. How is everyone? I’ve really enjoyed all of the comments I’ve been getting since more and more people have started following my blog. I really appreciate everyone. I’m curious if there’s anything anyone else is curious about in regards to topics having to do with BPD. I like researching, and would have fun putting in the research time and posting my findings! It’s like a twisted treasure hunt.