A: An emophane
Direct link (or read below for a summary, along with my own personal commentary): http://aapel.org/bdp/BLemophaniaUS.html
Wow. I just stumbled upon this. I’ve met a few other borderlines around the internet and have noticed some similarities among us all. I think the biggest two I’ve noticed are kind-heartedness and creativity. So I started on my e-search to “the positives about having BPD”, and I found this.
This is my favorite part: “It is not because I suffer from a borderline disorder that I’m sensitive, but because I’m sensitive that I was in a population at risk to develop a BPD”.
One of the other hallmarks of having BPD, is an identity disturbance. I often do feel like BPD is who I am. Who would I be without it? What would I be like? What all aspects about me would be different, or non-existent? I guess in a sense, I already feel so empty all of the time, that losing the one thing I am sure about myself (my diagnosis), feels like a total loss of myself. That above quote is certainly something to remember. It may also be a better idea to think of it this way. If you didn’t have your BPD, you wouldn’t lose any of you, but rather those great qualities may get the chance to shine even more.
We certainly are filled with some very great qualities.
Are you an emophane?