I’m very sad. I keep thinking about my boyfriend and trying to pull memories from my memory bank but I feel like I’m losing them. It’s like he died and so much time has gone by that I can’t remember him anymore. And the most awful part in that is that it’s only been a week and I have one more week to go. Borderline time stinks. It’s like…worse than dog years or maybe very similar. I’m not sure if this is something I can fix or if I just have to let it be until he comes home. We have a great vacation coming up and he told me to try and focus on that. I’m really trying but nothing feels real. Does anyone relate? Is there anything I can do or is this one of the symptoms I will just have to accept and suffer through? I’m just sad yet detached and numb and angry and hurt all at the same time. How do normal people do it? What do they feel when their loved one is away for a bit?
😦 I’m trying.