My boyfriend literally just texted me a picture of him. My very very first reaction was one that someone would have if they’d just walked into their own surprise party. That only lasted about a split second and then the tears came. What happened??? It was like the reality of his existence hit me and it just made me cry because he isn’t here. I think throughout the past week since he left for his vacation, it’s like he’d become a figment of my imagination, which was scary because I couldn’t keep hold of him within my world no matter how hard I tried. Then when he sent me that picture it was like my borderline world had been struck by a huge comet called REALITY, and when it exploded through, it shot shards of emotion into me that I’d been out of touch with this whole time. The tears have already stopped but it was a very weird moment. Like I was overwhelmingly happy, sad, hurt, excited…all at the same time. I think I’m alright now, but weird.