So today was a great day. I woke up and was a bit unsure of how I was feeling or what state of mind I was in. I worried because I planned on having lunch with my boyfriend again today. For him it was probably just lunch, for me it was like a do-over, a take-two, another attempt to make it a good encounter to replace the last that I felt I had ruined.
Anyway, I had a job interview this morning. An interview for an awesome position within my current company. It went very well, though I am trying to be neither negative nor overly positive and confident about it. I’m just going to remain neutral and see what happens.
I then had lunch with my boyfriend and it was GREAT!!!! It was so good to see him. I felt like me again and I felt like he was him again, to me. He wasn’t a stranger or a bad guy anymore.
I went back to work and all day was spent helping the other department get caught up. I don’t particularly enjoy their work, but it felt good to be called in and told that they needed my speed and proficiency to help them get back on track. I enjoyed the break from my work, though I flip-flopped back and forth as needed and it just was nice.
I came home and got dishes done, made a tasty dinner, and got some other to-do’s done. I received a call from this mental health organization that I emailed last night. It turns out they take my insurance AND there is one therapist available who has experience with BPD. I then called my insurance to verify some stuff, and found that my plan has a special addition that allows me to use up this one portion that will cover 100% of my routine mental health service appointments for a certain number of appointments before it then rolls over into the regular coverage. I’m no where near meeting my deductible so this is a great place to start. Turns out also, that this same mental health organization takes THAT insurance as well! I’m starting to feel like maybe this is a good place to transfer to. My boyfriend doesn’t feel good right now, but when he’s better I’m going to ask him what he thinks I should do!!!! Maybe I should contact the other places I was looking at, first, before I decide on anyone/any place, just in case? Idk. I’ll see what says.
So, it’s been a good day. Yay!