So I know I seemed fine in my last post and I was trying really hard but today has been rough and I just keep getting worse.
I can’t wait until that date on my calendar. It’s way too far away but FUCK I know I have to. This just isn’t right. It’s not right that any human being has to live this way. It’s no fucking way to live. How am I supposed to just survive like this?
I don’t understand.
Everything hurts. Every-fucking-thing. EVERYTHING!!!!
Do you get it?! How is this acceptable!? How it is ok that I wake up every morning and instantly I’m filled with dread. This fucking poison. I can’t do it anymore. I just fucking can’t.