On the Line

I’ve been doing really well and it’s felt really good but right now I just don’t know. I’m not feeling well and I just want to go be alone and lay down and think or cry or something but I’m like afraid to do anything right now.

I have mixed emotions and thoughts and I’m just not sure what to do.

I’m not ready for the good to be over but I just don’t know.

2 thoughts on “On the Line

  1. Hello Mandi
    I’m sorry to hear that your feeling confused and unsure and that you want to cry but are afraid.

    I used to practice mindfulness (which seems to be part of DBT) and felt better for it, their theory seemed to be to let emotions pass through me rather than avoiding them. From what you’ve said before it seems that BPD can intensify emotions. I know my loved one puts a huge amount of energy into not feeling many things and I wonder if that allows them to sort of build up but also protects him from being overwhelmed. Mindfulness then could maybe be a way to feel safely?? I don’t know.

    I’ve not practiced mindfulness for some time as I am avoiding my own negative emotions by keeping busy. Maybe I should start again now. It is hard to confront these things and avoidance is working for me šŸ™‚ I think I’ll start again soon though – thank you for making me think about this šŸ™‚

    Either way if you lay down and cried I hope it was a relief rather than opening up deep hurts and if you battled through I hope that worked. I hope today is a good day.


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