So I finally get it. I don’t know why it took til now or how it finally sunk in, but I know what he is looking for.
If anyone reading this has followed my blog well, you will know that I’m a very emotional person and I tend to make reactive decisions based on emotions I have at that very moment.
One of the first things I learned in therapy, which is a very hard skill for me, is using wise mind. I don’t use this much at all. If I did, I wouldn’t be in this situation.
So I get it. I need to get through this rough patch. Let him officially move out which I’m sure will spark up some intense emotions for a period of time. It’s not to say it won’t ever affect me again but in time the emotions will settle and I will be able to make a decision using my wise mind.
For those that don’t know, wise mind is like logic meets emotion. The gray area between the two.
I don’t even know if he will still be around when this happens but I am going to do this, I WILL, and hope for the best.