Sometimes I feel like my blog is the only one I can talk to. I just don’t trust or want to burden people, or they just aren’t helping, and this is all I have left.
I’m out drinking. I just can’t bare anything right now. Everything hurts and right now I just need to numb the pain. Get out of myself. Idk. Anywhere but here. In my head.
I am so tired of this life. So fucking tired. I’ve been so stressed out lately and I am just this ticking time bomb that explodes over the smallest things and resets and blows up over and over. I’m starting to have nightmares again. Not sleeping soundly at all.
Something has got to give. Alcohol is all I have right now.